birthday baby! apparently i am twenty-nine now. was genuinely sure i was turning twenty-eight this year, but oh whell. i have some things on track that felt like they were forever off last time i blogged: top surgery date is moving forward, i have a phone call appointment about it in november. so maybe next year sometime? that would be amazing.

picked a name, and it feels like it's gonna stick: jude. it's the name i'm using here, currently. very excited to hopefully get it actually changed. there's so much workkkkkk to transitioning, how on earth do transphobes think people would do this for like, a minor advantage in sports or similar? wild theory.

my student loan chunk is almost paid off (paid the second last bit this month, will pay the last-last bit next month). other chunk is forevermore, but like five years at $200 isn't too bad. doable.

and my bet friend kat may be moving back to the country. i don't want to jinx it by getting my hopes up, but i'd love to see her again. but in my dream of dreams we move in together. i get the support (financial, emotional) i need to live alone, with someone i love forever forever forever. it could be really awesome. but she may also move to scotland. either way, she'll be closer than she has been in ages. i want her to be happy, to find something good no matter where that is. but i also do hope to see her in person again. it's been a while.

had a birthday dinner with my dad and stepmom last night, ate excellent indian food (way too much of it, though). then had a sliver of cake. more this morning for breakfast. yummy.... overall, things are looking up !! hopes and dreams abound.